Sunday, 15 December 2013

Hanging In The Moment

The noises in the room
Shaking through your brain.
The people always move,
Sending you insane.

They rave and they rant,
But someone seems to say.
Somehow through the chant
You can’t make it go away.

There’s no way to discern
What you see and what you hear.
There’s no way you can learn
How to set aside the fear.

The fear gripping tighter,
Grabbing at your throat,
Your head feeling lighter,
As you begin to float.

The room changing shades,
Everything looks the same.
You begin to fade,
Then someone calls your name.

You’ve found someone who cares?
You realise through the noise,
They’re laughing as they stare.
You know you’ve made the choice...

The world has turned away,
No one knows you’re gone,
Your body starts to sway.

The rope taut, not too long… 

?

My life
Revolving around,
Punctuation.
One such symbol,
The symbol
Of uncertainty.
Ever questioning
And ever present.
All it takes is a shift.

For Those We Have Loved

The footsteps
Resounding from the path,
The silent wheels
That nobody shall pass.

The end of one.
As she lives on in us,
The beginning of the end.
The scattering of dust.

A Collection of Older Writings

Fences
Implanted spines mocking, the gentle sway of a limb, the sigh of a breath, in their regimented lines. Bristling in the natural world as only artificial can. The implanted spines are corroding our grip on the land.
We are spineless as we stitch this intricate fabric into little shapes, define them with a name and use them at our will. We have hearts as we nurture each shape, reaping what we sow but always sowing for the future.

Red
There’s only so much death you can see in a day before you look at the world and think ‘what a cruel cold place’.
Such a cold world as the warmth seeping from you congeals, slowly becoming cold and still. This world leaches our life force. We fight just to live.
We cover ourselves in warmth hoping it will seep into us to dispel our fear of the cold. Hoping it will stop world’s cruel wind sapping our warmth and our life force. Hoping we live.
We seek red! Red is warmth, is fire and passion, is a beating heart, is love, is blood and so it is life. Red is the opposite of death... we all fear death, fear the cold and stiff where there is no red. I feel I almost understand our hunt for love. Finding someone who can give us red for eternity. Someone who can cover us in red and dispel the cold, stop the world’s wind making us fall before it, stop it making us freeze for eternity and so we believe in heaven or reincarnation because if the cold isn't for eternity it is no longer scary. We live to remove our fears, and to remove the cold with red things does that.
Red is love and beliefs, is pumping blood, is passion and fire, is feeling things to our core. Red defies death, opposes cold and sustains us.
Today I saw no red, merely the aftermath of lives that could not contain red, could not hold red to themselves. And so I hunt for red.

Lambs
The lamb gambols, the wind whispers, the duckling paddles. And the sun, the sun gets to reflect upon it all.

Birds
The tail feathers draped over the gutters edge, flitting this way and that. A slight metallic clinking of claws against the corrugations. The bass line to the melodious trills trumpeted to the world. He heralds, then takes flight soaring above the gravity of this world below him.
He is not given it nor does he borrow it, he takes it for himself and defies the weight of the world. He is his own master.

Trees

Watching the gentle grace of majestic boughs courting one another with stately bows beneath the winds watchful eye, the youths sweeping low to the ground before the aged holding sway at lofty heights. The aged take care not to offend the winds for fear of being torn from their stately position.

Belle Arbor

There are often trees that I see that elicit some fairly deep writing. They each have a life and a story of their own, the beauty of a tree is that you can read it's story in it's limbs, trunk and leaves. (This post will be updated as I discover new trees to personify.)


Don't fight life's unexpected turns, you never know what beauty may arise from them...



We always lean toward certain ways of life... Don't be afraid to branch out in an opposite direction. Even if it doesn't work out, the depth and beauty you acquire in doing so will always be worthwhile.



Beauty is not limited to the living. Often in death, the flaws are forgotten and the beauty deepens as we accept the entirety of what was, what no longer is, and what will always be. All that is remembered is how high you reached toward your dreams, how proudly and solidly you stood - for yourself or others. So dream big and stand tall, for what you leave behind may be the shelter another needs. A refuge they can take courage from, so they too can dream big and stand tall.


She twists and turns, thrashing and flailing against the unknowns. She cries out in anguish as the pain courses through her body. She desperately seeks a source of light as the unknown threatens to suck her into the tumultuous depths of her own dark emotion. Each time she turns away from the dark and the terror, she let's herself reach for the light and joy. She blooms just a little more, and as she flourishes she begins to support herself, until finally she trusts herself. She trusts that she can hold herself up. All she needs is a little grounding and to allow the light to shine into her life.



When those around you are battered and bruised and the same force tries to bring you down too. Try, try again! For there is nothing to be gained from conceding defeat.



What we present to this world is what people see, yet every single one of us has a support system that isn't visible. Our friends and family, our secret joys and passions, our fears and hopes. What we show to the world isn't possible without these intricacies; the things beneath out polished exterior that make us who we are. So be true to those parts of you that have let you grow into who you are today. 








Saturday, 14 December 2013

Feeling Infinite - Defining Truth

In these moments when you can reach into the very depths of your soul, when there is absolutely nothing hidden within you. In these moments you come to realise just how much power your emotions have, how you and what you leave in this world can change the world as you move through it. There is nothing you cannot do, and there will never be a time that this world doesn't change you. Every little thing has an effect on us, from taking the time to watch a sunset or not pausing to see that beauty. From a kiss on the cheek to wishing it had been a kiss on the cheek. Every moment has meaning and every person in that moment will create their own version of what occurred. We all have our own truth and this world is merely an amalgamation of us trying to reconcile our truths to each other's. At times we meet people who connect with our truth, confirm it and build it and inspire it. At other times people tear our truth to shreds with their own conviction in their truth. There will always be people who never waver from their truth and will not bend to see another's truth. Perhaps seeing a new truth may change their truth irrevocably, or perhaps they truly cannot see another truth as their truth is so utterly absolute for them. As we pass along the paths we choose to take, the paths that we choose based upon our truth, we shift the truth of those around us. Averting your eyes from a stranger in the street may lead to them confirming that the world is not a place they want to be in, that they aren't worth anything, that strangers are rude. There are any number of truths that can be confirmed or denied from any one action or lack of action. And so, in these moments when you can feel the infinite-ness of your existence, when your full potential is at your fingertips remember to use it in a way that will create positive truths, truths that allow for others' truths. For only when we accept those around us for who they are and what they believe to be can we expand our own truth, grow into someone more infinite, someone who has an even larger positive effect on this world. Positivity breeds upon itself and truth is not fact, but belief.